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by Michelle ~ October 1st, 2008. Filed under: My Thoughts.Yes, I am. That’s what I have decided over the past couple of days. Here is what I am thinking about this change … In December, towards the end of the month, I have decided to get started on Chantrix (the latest stop smoking medicine). Ok, that decision has been made. Now I need to either do something about my attitude or my job. I think that these two go hand in hand. Either that or I am just having a rough week.
On Monday, I wasn’t in a bad mood as Tator Tot had suggested over and over. I just wasn’t myself. And Tuesday, the same thing still I wasn’t in a bad mood. I am not sure what’s going on with me. I just don’t have the motivation or desire for much of anything right now. I wonder if this is why I just can’t get myself into trying to conceive this month.
I wish there were a book about making life changes. Just changes within myself, nothing to do with Tator Tot. I know that towards the end of the year, I’ll be getting ready to make one big change, but there has to be something more. Something more than coming to work to do data entry of applications or wait for emails to come pouring in about work.
As it relates to work, I think that I have totally re-vamped my job to a point that I am holding on to applications in order to be sure that I have something to do the next day. The use of one little program has totally taken 75% of my workload away. So I don’t think that I can improve my position any better than I already have. Which results in my frustration of not having any work to do. On the other hand, I don’t want to learn any more of anyone’s position because I could care less. See, isn’t that a great attitude.
Another part of this that frustrates me so much is that I get paid very well. In fact, I am paid so well that its hard to find another position that would pay me this well. So I sit here unhappy and dissatisfied. What a combination!!
Plus, I am getting older and I think that I should be in a position where I am set with my life. In terms of relationships and career wise, but sadly that’s not the case (pertains only to my job). I guess, maybe, that’s what I need to think about as far as change is concerned.
Well, that wraps up this very long post. I hope that you have a great day.